I wasn't going to blog about this, simply because I don't really think it matters to most of you guys - but a friend told me to do it because some of the smash community might be concerned.. so here it is.

I had to be taken to the emergency room through an ambulance yesterday morning due to my Crohn's. I was having the absolute worst pain ever experienced in my stomach and couldn't even move for two hours. Felt like someone was taking a knife and just churning it through my stomach while setting it on fire. 

I've had Crohn's disease for 6 years now, and the past year I haven't been taking my medicine due to the fact that it practically disappeared. I was having no symptoms, and my own doctor wanted to take me off of the meds due to the side effects.

Yesterday morning (when I woke up), I just lied in my bed and hoped that the pain would go away , but it was constant and never really did.

I had to get up and find the phone to call my Mom because no one was home to help me. It was extremely hard due to how severe the pain is and actually took me two whole hours to let the pain simmer down and just get up to walk and find the phone. I barely remember talking to my mom, and I passed out right after.

Next thing I knew I was in the ambulance on the way to the emergency room.
The doctors have told me that it could be one of two things, my Crohn's flaring up extremely severely or my appendix bursting and causing all of the pain. They say it's likely due to a lot of stress being built up or things I've recently consumed. I was having trouble moving/breathing so they put me on a lot of morphine and other drugs/antibiotics but it didn't help the pain at all and it also didn't affect me mentally. 

They upped the dose for a 250 lb person, but it still had no affect so they then had to put me on Dilaudid which is like a heavier version of morphine to take away the pain. It's been working so far, which is really good. I'm just worried about what might happen when it wears off again - which already has happened and I felt really weak and ran a fever.

I've had a 102.3 degree fever basically this entire time, but right now I'm sorta okay with a 100.4 degree temperature and my stomach is feeling virtually no pain.

There is a 25% chance that I will have to undergo surgery tomorrow if my appendix has actually bursted.. I took a catscan and the doctors are trying to figure it out right now.

They say that there is a lot of liquid sitting at the bottom of my abdomen and it could be prone for infection so they are trying to find the best way in getting it out. Drainage through a tube is probably what they will do to me tomorrow if my appendix didn't burst, which is what I am hoping for. There's also a lot of severe inflammation in both my small and large intestines (from the Crohn's) and that's where the pain is coming from. My stomach can't properly bypass the food and digest it properly, so it gets stuck and basically hits all kinds of cysts in my stomach. It may have torn slightly, which could also be really bad. I'm hoping for the best, though.

My Dad told me that the doctors informed him that if I didn't come to the ER yesterday, I likely could have died from the fever/severe abdominal pain due to Crohn's. I'm really glad that I was able to get up and make it to the phone, because my mom wouldn't have been home until like at least 3 PM.

My GI doctor just came in and told me a bunch of stuff like my intestine has torn and burst and all this stuff has spilled into my abdominal cavity. If I eat, it basically causes the pain so I can't eat until I work all of this out. Surgeons are probably going to come here Tuesday and they might have to do something, but I'm not entirely sure what yet. They want to keep me on a lot of antibiotics and monitor me cause they said it's pretty severe.

I have to stay here for 10 - 14 more days at the least. 
I can't eat any food, which makes it suck a whole lot more. 

I'm really glad I have wifi right now in my room, and all of you guys who found out of it have been really concerned, encouraging, and helpful. It may sound corny, but I honestly don't even know where I would be or what I would do if it wasn't for all of you guys always being there for me when I'm in deep crap because I really don't have many other friends outside of smash. You guys are like another family to me and I really do love and appreciate a lot of you so much, I can't even begin to think of words to describe.

If anyone has anything they want to recommend to kill time, it would be greatly appreciated.