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Update On My Hospital Visit / 5-31-12
posted to the public at 7:42 PM on Thursday May 31, 2012
As some of you know, last week I was admitted into the ER due to my Crohn's disease. If you didn't know and are interested in reading into it, the blog can be found here.

This blog is simply to update my friends in the smash community on how certain things are going, sympathy isn't what I'm looking for. I just want people who are concerned to be informed on my health (because I get a lot of questions whenever I log into Aim, AiB, or SWF). 

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5-24-12 

Admitted into the hospital.

5-25 -> 5-28

Just whatever I posted in the blog above were the things that were going on.

5-28-12

Small amount of Crohn's pain, nausea, 101 degree fever, and headaches. 
Gnes, Sync, Zori, Pj, Kilik, Maharba, Smoom, Xyro, and P4 all came over.
We had a really good time just chilling/playing smash/listening to music.
There was a good amount of pain, but I could still function properly.
The doctors allowed me to eat.

5-29-12

Virtually no pain all day.
PJ came over around 7 and spent the entire night with me doing whatever.
Pretty fun stuff.

5-30-12

Woke up and was feeling really well, PJ went to go buy me a hashbrown at McDonalds (because I was able to eat food at this point). While he was gone, Crohn's pain started accumulating here and there.. so I put myself on a good amount of dilaudid (stronger form of morphine), but the pain is so strong that even the drug doesn't have an affect on it.

Right before PJ left to go to work, things started getting serious. I started shaking violently, became really cold, got sharp pains in my head, and couldn't control my body. The pain was about a 18/10, if that's even possible. The pain that sent me to the hospital was a 10/10 itself. I thought I was going to die, and PJ probably did too.. so he had to run and get the nurse (thankfully he slimmed down time; compared to me hitting whatever button on the side of my ER bed to call my nurse).

TL;DR

One of the worst days of my entire life.. basically a kidney stone managed to pop up and find itself near my crohn's inflammation, all while I had a 103 degree fever for well over seven hours.

Couldn't move, could barely breathe, couldn't speak, if someone nudged any part of my stomach I would jump about twenty feet into the air. Getting up and trying to go to the restroom was the equivalent of hell itself. All the while, the doctors had to take X-rays, catscans, and various other procedures on my body while I was blacking out. This was for the entire day, and wasn't the crohn's pain itself - but something else entirely. Like that feeling of having done 200+ sit ups and trying to run a marathon after. Except 20x worse and more excruciating. Felt like an anvil was dropped inside my stomach and just left there. I was extremely afraid of the crohn's pain coming on while I had whatever pain this was, because God knows how I would survive if it popped up. Thankfully it never came. 

Passed out from all the heavy forms of morphine and pain I was enduring. The drug doesn't really affect me all that much, which really sucks.. but it makes music sound extremely relaxing, as well as everything else so it helps in those regards. Really did not want to wake up and see what was in store for me the next day.

5-31-12 

Woke up and was feeling 25x better. The anvil feeling in my stomach was basically halved and has been healing increasingly as time has passed. I've had a few Crohn's attacks, but none over the range of an 8 on a scale from 1-10. I've been taking morphine to calm whatever pain before it comes, anticipation in a way.

Xyro came over around 1 PM and brought his daughter, Claire. We played smash, talked, and had a good time. He left me some movies to watch and his 3DS with a bunch of games to play.. so that's pretty cool.

I've just been laying here trying to get better (and have been) for the past three hours or so since Xyro has left. Gnes, PJ, Jerm, and my brother are all coming over to either stay for a good while or spend the night. It should be fun.

I haven't consumed any food or swallowed any water since yesterday. 
I can't eat until probably Tuesday at this rate.

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Currently, I'm 100% going under surgery before leaving the hospital.

Based off of what the doctors and surgeons have seen while I've been here, the data they have accumulated, and their opinion on the matter - they think it would be the absolute worst decision to release me without it. The plan initially was to keep me here until I could eat/drink properly without anything happening - but it's clearly far worse than that and my body is producing other stuff that shouldn't be going on.  

I can't go under the knife until Monday of next week. This is primarily due to the fact that if I do have surgery before then, the risks exceed the reward. My body has been under too much stress/pain within these recent days and the doctors don't want to take the chance of something going wrong, and me having to carry a bag around my body in order to go to the restroom for a significant period of my life if it does.

If all goes well, the surgery will consist of them cutting off the inflamed part of my bowels (intestines) and stitching it together so I can properly eat/function/get nutrition in order to live.

These past few days have shown me a lot about life in general. You've only got one and it could always be worse. Try to live each and every day without intentionally inflicting negative emotions onto another unless it's constructive criticism. Unneeded stress is never worth it.

The smash community has pulled through once again, and I'm extremely grateful for it. Thank you to everyone who has shown any slight sense of empathy at all.. I really appreciate it.

Comments

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Zano wrote at 7:46 PM on May 31, 2012 :
Glad everyone has been keeping you company and helping you get through this rough time. Get better soon plz : (

Illmatic. wrote at 7:48 PM on May 31, 2012 :
ye brah ima keep on pressin deez weights n drinkin this monster

ChiboSempai wrote at 7:50 PM on May 31, 2012 :
A friend of mine had Chron's disease, it's really terrible, sad to hear that it's what you're going through.

Akashi wrote at 7:57 PM on May 31, 2012 :
It's so amazing to hear that your community is coming to see you so often :). I just checked your last blog, and noticed that my msg never went through (due to my phone). But ya, I'm praying for you man, and I hope you get through this with a QUICK recovery! God bless^^

Illmatic. wrote at 8:05 PM on May 31, 2012 :
yep yep yep, houston smash scene is the best
and thank you :)

Dahniska wrote at 8:08 PM on May 31, 2012 :
Hope your surgery goes well, and it's good to hear that you've been able to even get some time in for offline Smash with all this going on!

Dahniska wrote at 8:09 PM on May 31, 2012 :
Would probably find time to swing by sometime myself if I wasn't busy at work.

RakanIsReal wrote at 8:14 PM on May 31, 2012 :
This is incredibly sad to read, I hope things works out.

Illmatic. wrote at 8:15 PM on May 31, 2012 :
ily diska, you can definitely come if you want
and ty rakan

Tharja wrote at 8:23 PM on May 31, 2012 :
I'm really happy you're making it through this. I will keep wishing you better, and it's good everyone is keeping you company and all that. :)

TheRealBobMan wrote at 8:26 PM on May 31, 2012 :
I'm sorry it's so bad that you need surgery, and sad that you have to endure this until Monday so you can get the problem fixed. Stay strong and don't give up.

Sorg wrote at 8:35 PM on May 31, 2012 :
That avi jack

southpaw24 wrote at 8:40 PM on May 31, 2012 :
jeez i've only been to the hospital once for breaking my leg and this blog makes my visit seem like I got a paper cut in comparison to this. and i'd only rate the pain for breaking a bone as 8/10.

Ant wrote at 8:57 PM on May 31, 2012 :
I am glad You're feeling better.

Coolwhip wrote at 9:17 PM on May 31, 2012 :
That's great to see fellow smashers to visit you. i'll prey for a full and safe recovery.

Citrus wrote at 9:37 PM on May 31, 2012 :
damn, I'm never gonna overreact to minor pains again. you're a strong person

Gentle wrote at 9:56 PM on May 31, 2012 :
Aws, glad to see you're okay c':. Get even better soon!

.Flare wrote at 10:02 PM on May 31, 2012 :
Damn, you got some great friends dude. I hope you feel better and everything turns out well.

clowsui wrote at 10:30 PM on May 31, 2012 :
keep pushin ill :) #1 peach

KhaosMatador wrote at 10:45 PM on May 31, 2012 :
Glad you have some good friends to help you pass the time and everything. Already anticipating that the surgery goes well and you're fully recovered really soon.

TymeR wrote at 10:56 PM on May 31, 2012 :
Everyone who visited you helps me keep my hope (which is very low) for humanity going . They are amazing people for sure. Keep them close to you. Those who show you this kind of care while you are in this state of pain and suffering will help keep you going.

With how you are handling this, it sure seems like you are strong mentally and physically if you can withstand such pain. To even be touched on your abdomen/stomach and be forced to react in such a manor, is beyond my comprehension of what pain really is. Hell, even getting the air knocked out of me feels like I am dying. I shall pray for you and hope for a successful surgery. Stay strong.

TL;DR - I say stuff about stuff that may relate to stuff.

Illmatic. wrote at 11:32 PM on May 31, 2012 :
wow, thanks tymer

TymeR wrote at 12:05 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
Don't mention it man. When I was in the hospital for a car accident once, I expected to have my gf visit me or something. But she decided that it was only two days and it wouldn't make sense going. So for that, I grew envious of you a little bit. But you have great friends. Just a former Peach mains words for a more well known, better Peach main :P

Mr. Girls Of Gaming wrote at 1:04 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
wish you well

P-Chan wrote at 1:21 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
hey ill,its great to read that you have good friends to be with you during this times, even though it were like 3-4 sentences compared to all that pain. good to know you have company.
playing smash after all that 20x pain ordeal ? XD
i rly rly hope you get better and healty.

Illmatic. wrote at 1:28 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
thanks guys

@P-chan the pain usually comes in waves, it doesn't stick with me for hours upon hours
(except for yesterday, where I couldn't even move.. hence why I didn't get online all day)

TensaZan. wrote at 2:15 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
Get well soon. My heart goes out to you.

SketchLA94 wrote at 2:30 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
Blog(s) of the Year status(es) because you kept us in mind while fighting through this sickness. Stay strong and I hope you get through it 110% successfully! Mad respect.

Jutsu wrote at 3:36 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
i hope you get better dillmatic, i miss philosophical hipsters. i love u bb

Gheb wrote at 3:36 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
Surgery on Monday ... you're almost there!

Illmatic. wrote at 3:41 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
monday at the earliest! but im going to stay positive and stick to believing it will be then
jutsu, i may revive philosophical hipsters... we will see

LEGOF wrote at 10:06 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
I'm terrified of anything to do with surgery because all I hear about is pain and restlessness. I'll e praying for you, regardless if you believe in God or not.

FF Yukko wrote at 10:35 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
Don't know you but

Best of Luck to you dude :3

MythTrainerInfinity wrote at 11:04 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
Get well soon.

t1mmy wrote at 11:20 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
I hope everything goes as best as possible and that you have a speedy recovery.

juiceAllied wrote at 11:34 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
god damn, get better broski :)

DR3W wrote at 11:35 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
Illmatic, we are not close or anything, but I wish you the best of luck. My dad had a similar condition (and now has an ostomy pouch) so I know second-handedly the pain you are going through. You got this man. Stay strong.

Eddie G wrote at 11:51 AM on Jun 1, 2012 :
You will pull through this Ill. We're all behind you bro!

Illmatic. wrote at 1:17 PM on Jun 1, 2012 :
thank you, everyone!
pwii may come see me soon haha, looking forward to it

Xyro77 wrote at 1:29 PM on Jun 1, 2012 :
the only thing i care about is when will u frakking die? i cant wait to pawn all yo ****, nig. gonna done did sell dem laptops and buy me some texas roadhouse rolls, BICH.

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