As some of you know, last week I was admitted into the ER due to my Crohn's disease. If you didn't know and are interested in reading into it, the blog can be found here
This blog is simply to update my friends in the smash community on how certain things are going, sympathy isn't what I'm looking for. I just want people who are concerned to be informed on my health (because I get a lot of questions whenever I log into Aim, AiB, or SWF).
Admitted into the hospital. 5-25 -> 5-28
Just whatever I posted in the blog above were the things that were going on. 5-28-12
Small amount of Crohn's pain, nausea, 101 degree fever, and headaches.
Gnes, Sync, Zori, Pj, Kilik, Maharba, Smoom, Xyro, and P4 all came over.
We had a really good time just chilling/playing smash/listening to music.
There was a good amount of pain, but I could still function properly.
The doctors allowed me to eat. 5-29-12
Virtually no pain all day.
PJ came over around 7 and spent the entire night with me doing whatever.
Pretty fun stuff. 5-30-12
Woke up and was feeling really well, PJ went to go buy me a hashbrown at McDonalds (because I was able to eat food at this point). While he was gone, Crohn's pain started accumulating here and there.. so I put myself on a good amount of dilaudid (stronger form of morphine), but the pain is so strong that even the drug doesn't have an affect on it.
Right before PJ left to go to work, things started getting serious. I started shaking violently, became really cold, got sharp pains in my head, and couldn't control my body. The pain was about a 18/10, if that's even possible. The pain that sent me to the hospital was a 10/10 itself. I thought I was going to die, and PJ probably did too.. so he had to run and get the nurse (thankfully he slimmed down time; compared to me hitting whatever button on the side of my ER bed to call my nurse).
One of the worst days of my entire life.. basically a kidney stone managed to pop up and find itself near my crohn's inflammation, all while I had a 103 degree fever for well over seven hours.
Couldn't move, could barely breathe, couldn't speak, if someone nudged any part of my stomach I would jump about twenty feet into the air. Getting up and trying to go to the restroom was the equivalent of hell itself. All the while, the doctors had to take X-rays, catscans, and various other procedures on my body while I was blacking out. This was for the entire day, and wasn't the crohn's pain itself - but something else entirely. Like that feeling of having done 200+ sit ups and trying to run a marathon after. Except 20x worse and more excruciating. Felt like an anvil was dropped inside my stomach and just left there. I was extremely afraid of the crohn's pain coming on while I had whatever pain this was, because God knows how I would survive if it popped up. Thankfully it never came.
Passed out from all the heavy forms of morphine and pain I was enduring. The drug doesn't really affect me all that much, which really sucks.. but it makes music sound extremely relaxing, as well as everything else so it helps in those regards. Really did not want to wake up and see what was in store for me the next day. 5-31-12
Woke up and was feeling 25x better. The anvil feeling in my stomach was basically halved and has been healing increasingly as time has passed. I've had a few Crohn's attacks, but none over the range of an 8 on a scale from 1-10. I've been taking morphine to calm whatever pain before it comes, anticipation in a way.
Xyro came over around 1 PM and brought his daughter, Claire. We played smash, talked, and had a good time. He left me some movies to watch and his 3DS with a bunch of games to play.. so that's pretty cool.
I've just been laying here trying to get better (and have been) for the past three hours or so since Xyro has left. Gnes, PJ, Jerm, and my brother are all coming over to either stay for a good while or spend the night. It should be fun.
I haven't consumed any food or swallowed any water since yesterday.
I can't eat until probably Tuesday at this rate.
Currently, I'm 100% going under surgery before leaving the hospital.
Based off of what the doctors and surgeons have seen while I've been here, the data they have accumulated, and their opinion on the matter - they think it would be the absolute worst decision to release me without it. The plan initially was to keep me here until I could eat/drink properly without anything happening - but it's clearly far worse than that and my body is producing other stuff that shouldn't be going on.
I can't go under the knife until Monday of next week. This is primarily due to the fact that if I do have surgery before then, the risks exceed the reward. My body has been under too much stress/pain within these recent days and the doctors don't want to take the chance of something going wrong, and me having to carry a bag around my body in order to go to the restroom for a significant period of my life if it does.
If all goes well, the surgery will consist of them cutting off the inflamed part of my bowels (intestines) and stitching it together so I can properly eat/function/get nutrition in order to live.
These past few days have shown me a lot about life in general. You've only got one and it could always be worse. Try to live each and every day without intentionally inflicting negative emotions onto another unless it's constructive criticism. Unneeded stress is never worth it.
The smash community has pulled through once again, and I'm extremely grateful for it. Thank you to everyone who has shown any slight sense of empathy at all.. I really appreciate it.